who am i without effort? where do i hold on to, when every step = 0? who do i become? when this is only a collection of nows? where do i attach, when there is no horizontal plane? who am i, when i accept this vertical body? simply transmitting, heaven on earth. past and future, only existing now. effortless existence. as if nothing happened, as if nothing will happen. alertness + effort, not to be confused. within alertness hides a door, to effortless space. where life flows, through spine. like sunlight, informing tree. who stands upright. weaving with the cosmic honey, spreading out into all it is meant to be. i am, without effort.
imagine, if it were effortless to move every cell of the body in the place it knows how to be all working together without effort, with pleasure the body as a whole each part in unique relationship with gravity all dancing singularly in the divine complete puzzle whole. movement isn't effort or doing it is, intention traveling in directions and a perceiving of how this intention travels and shapes all parts of the whole doing and being, together in harmony.
the choice, to open into infinite possibilities finding silent home in chaos who am i without effort?
identity in effort, a false sense of safety, a false sense of control. trying to know, to hide from the experience of knowing what it could mean to be in this body a collection of the universe experiencing human form in relation to all forces around a dance between infinity unfolding catalyzing balanced between poles held, but free belonging.
improvised movement with soundscape of ONUK
stepping into stillness that only ends can bring tricking their end to reveal space in all moments still in my observation of the dance around and inside the white abyss of crystalizing waters whispers above leaves become fire as water leaves their veins fire flows from the base of me drop by drop offering compulsory transition into mysteries red is the color of change
munich, germany // october 2020
photos by the beautiful being, James Nix
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