who am i without effort? where do i hold on to, when every step = 0? who do i become? when this is only a collection of nows? where do i attach, when there is no horizontal plane? who am i, when i accept this vertical body? simply transmitting, heaven on earth. past and future, only existing now. effortless existence. as if nothing happened, as if nothing will happen. alertness + effort, not to be confused. within alertness hides a door, to effortless space. where life flows, through spine. like sunlight, informing tree. who stands upright. weaving with the cosmic honey, spreading out into all it is meant to be. i am, without effort.
imagine, if it were effortless to move every cell of the body in the place it knows how to be all working together without effort, with pleasure the body as a whole each part in unique relationship with gravity all dancing singularly in the divine complete puzzle whole. movement isn't effort or doing it is, intention traveling in directions and a perceiving of how this intention travels and shapes all parts of the whole doing and being, together in harmony.
the choice, to open into infinite possibilities finding silent home in chaos who am i without effort?
identity in effort, a false sense of safety, a false sense of control. trying to know, to hide from the experience of knowing what it could mean to be in this body a collection of the universe experiencing human form in relation to all forces around a dance between infinity unfolding catalyzing balanced between poles held, but free belonging.
guardian of the stillness from here comes full expression here lives the enchanted embrace jungle goddess, forest being i am a movement within the stillness every sensation held in this spacious fire of this heart of this breath of this spine double headed snake dancing between heaven and earth stars and moss light and dark woven, in balance a blanket of all colors resting, coating this body and the body we all share.
munich, germany // october 2021
i am ocean being my heartbeat voice of whales i am tree being my spine weaver of underworld roots i am cloud being my skin morphing with air i am stone being my bones solidification of wisdom i am flower being my heart magnet of golden honey i am sun being my eyes illumination of truth i am moon being my blood red tides unseen i am earth being my existence prayer of pleasure
munich // june 2021
improvised movement with soundscape of ONUK
this morning i saw my blood mixed with water hours let red melt to pink soft strong death visiting life carried by water between shrinking guts and expanding knowing deep breaths guide my limbs porcelain touches on freshly awoken body pores in their state of black holes slowly my light comes out hand, glass, blood hand above head my blood meets soil that i cannot see feeds tiny beings that i do not know but i say, hello hello with my death reverence to support this life of green webs of spiraling strength circling overhead as i sleep webs of life and death swirl mysteries down into the fibers of my blankets of my skin my blood continues to fall my death continues to bring life and our hearts continue to weave
munich, germany // december 2020
stepping into stillness that only ends can bring tricking their end to reveal space in all moments still in my observation of the dance around and inside the white abyss of crystalizing waters whispers above leaves become fire as water leaves their veins fire flows from the base of me drop by drop offering compulsory transition into mysteries red is the color of change
munich, germany // october 2020
retreat: into your cells they chose you. choose them. hold them in a vision of love, so that they expand and you with them to the back of a white winged bird where you can rest and discover who you are. a child of the brightest light drifting in a warm sea of love.
your body is her she holds you as hands meet, as bodies melt floating through the woodlands centuries ago the space is her the rhythm that your hand falls to touch the other the home is her on the back of a white winged bird we float timelessly in love